Strong Faith…

Strong faith in the Savior is submissively accepting of His will and timing in our lives—even if the outcome is not what we hoped for or wanted. ~David A. Bednar

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There is a reason this quote is my computer background.

I’m learning that not having my prayers answered the way I hoped for and wanted takes a whole heck of a lot of faith, more so than if my prayers had been answered. So I am putting my faith and trust into the hands of the Lord knowing that He sees a bigger picture and has a plan that I cannot comprehend right now. I know he is aware of us because I’ve seen his hand in our lives. I will cling to that as I patiently wait and pray and hope for the positive outcome I know to be possible.

Though I suffered then, as I look back now…

I hope someday I will be able to say this:

“Though I suffered then, as I look back now, I am grateful that there was not a quick solution to my problem. The fact that I was forced to turn to God for help almost daily over an extended period of years taught me truly how to pray and get answers to prayer and taught me in a very practical way to have faith in God. I came to know my Savior and my Heavenly Father in a way and to a degree that might not have happened otherwise or that might have taken me much longer to achieve. … I learned to trust in the Lord with all my heart. I learned to walk with Him day by day.”
~D. Todd Christopherson

I’m getting there. We’re still struggling and suffering and haven’t found the solution yet but the rest of the quote can be applied to me. I’ve been forced to turn to God for help almost daily over and extended period of years.  I’m learning how to pray and to get answers.  I’m learning to have faith in my Savior and my Heavenly Father and coming to know them and have faith in them and their plan.  I’ve got a long way to go but I’m getting there.

I’ve had several discussions with my daughter about this very thing.  She too is coming to know our Savior and Heavenly Father better because her prayers have been answered and she’s felt his love and peace. We’ve even wondered if my son agreed to this trial for our benefit, so that we could learn what we need to in this life.


Elder Faust gave a talk way back in 1979 that I have come to appreciate.

I wish to speak this morning to all, but especially to those who feel they have had more trials, sorrows, pricks, and thorns than they can bear and in their adversity are almost drowned in the waters of bitterness. My message is intended as one of hope, strength, and deliverance. I speak of the refiner’s fire.

Some years ago president David O. McKay told from this pulpit of the experience of some of those in the Martin handcart company. Many of these early converts had emigrated from Europe and were too poor to buy oxen or horses and a wagon. They were forced by their poverty to pull handcarts containing all of their belongings across the plains by their own brute strength. President McKay relates an occurrence which took place some years after the heroic exodus: “A teacher, conducting a class, said it was unwise ever to attempt, even to permit them [the Martin handcart company] to come across the plains under such conditions.

“[According to a class member,] some sharp criticism of the Church and its leaders was being indulged in for permitting any company of converts to venture across the plains with no more supplies or protection than a handcart caravan afforded.

“An old man in the corner … sat silent and listened as long as he could stand it, then he arose and said things that no person who heard him will ever forget. His face was white with emotion, yet he spoke calmly, deliberately, but with great earnestness and sincerity.

“In substance [he] said, ‘I ask you to stop this criticism. You are discussing a matter you know nothing about. Cold historic facts mean nothing here, for they give no proper interpretation of the questions involved. Mistake to send the Handcart Company out so late in the season? Yes. But I was in that company and my wife was in it and Sister Nellie Unthank whom you have cited was there, too. We suffered beyond anything you can imagine and many died of exposure and starvation, but did you ever hear a survivor of that company utter a word of criticism? Not one of that company ever apostatized or left the Church, because everyone of us came through with the absolute knowledge that God lives for we became acquainted with him in our extremities.


“‘I have pulled my handcart when I was so weak and weary from illness and lack of food that I could hardly put one foot ahead of the other. I have looked ahead and seen a patch of sand or a hill slope and I have said, I can go only that far and there I must give up, for I cannot pull the load through it.’” He continues: “‘I have gone on to that sand and when I reached it, the cart began pushing me. I have looked back many times to see who was pushing my cart, but my eyes saw no one. I knew then that the angels of God were there.

“‘Was I sorry that I chose to come by handcart? No. Neither then nor any minute of my life since. The price we paid to become acquainted with God was a privilege to pay, and I am thankful that I was privileged to come in the Martin Handcart Company.’” (Relief Society Magazine, Jan. 1948, p. 8.)

Here then is a great truth. In the pain, the agony, and the heroic endeavors of life, we pass through a refiner’s fire, and the insignificant and the unimportant in our lives can melt away like dross and make our faith bright, intact, and strong. In this way the divine image can be mirrored from the soul. It is part of the purging toll exacted of some to become acquainted with God. In the agonies of life, we seem to listen better to the faint, godly whisperings of the Divine Shepherd.

Into every life there come the painful, despairing days of adversity and buffeting. There seems to be a full measure of anguish, sorrow, and often heartbreak for everyone, including those who earnestly seek to do right and be faithful. The thorns that prick, that stick in the flesh, that hurt, often change lives which seem robbed of significance and hope. This change comes about through a refining process which often seems cruel and hard. In this way the soul can become like soft clay in the hands of the Master in building lives of faith, usefulness, beauty, and strength. For some, the refiner’s fire causes a loss of belief and faith in God, but those with eternal perspective understand that such refining is part of the perfection process.

In our extremities, it is possible to become born again, born anew, renewed in heart and spirit. We no longer ride with the flow of the crowd, but instead we enjoy the promise of Isaiah to be renewed in our strength and “mount up with wings as eagles” (Isa. 40:31).


What a great message.  I love these 2 lines from the story of the Handcart survivor:

“…everyone of us came through with the absolute knowledge that God lives for we became acquainted with him in our extremities”.

“The price we paid to become acquainted with God was a privilege to pay, and I am thankful…”

I’m trying to keep an eternal perspective.  I have faith that the blessing that have been given and promised to my son will come to pass in this life.  But if they don’t I know that everything will be made clear in the next life and nothing will be denied us if we can but endure this well.




Pride Cometh Before the Fall…

Personal Blog Post from May 25, 2011~

“You’re Going to Prove Me Wrong” – Seriously I couldn’t help but smile at hearing those words out of the psychiatrist’s mouth today.  He was thrilled with how well our oldest is doing. He had told me in all his years of practice he had never seen anyone get well.  I am going to prove him wrong!

That came on the heels of yesterday’s triumph with the counselor giving him a clean bill of health and saying that unless something changes he doesn’t need to see him for a month.

I know we still have such a long way to go.  There are still issues and medical concerns to deal with and there may be relapses to deal with but it has now been over 2 weeks with no medication and he’s doing fabulous.

So for today I’m again focusing on how far we have come instead of how long we still have to go.  It’s going to be a long journey but progress is being made and that makes me smile.

2.5 years later… I’m now much more humble than I was back then.  I look back and realize how proud I was believing that I had “fixed” my son. As they say… Pride cometh before the fall.

I still have an unwavering faith that my son will ultimately be fine. Exactly what “fine” is I leave in the hands of the Lord to determine. It has been a long journey and it may be even longer but I now trust in the Lord’s timing.

I have this quote as the background on my computer and it brings me great peace and comfort.

Strong faith in the Savior is submissively accepting of His will and timing in our lives, even if the outcome is not what we hoped for or wanted. ~ Elder Bednar

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Through the experiences I’ve had I’ve come to trust that God knows what is best for me and my family. I have faith that everything will work out all right in the end.  I’ve seen God’s hand working in our lives so many times the past few months I can’t doubt he is there and aware of what we are going through.

Isaiah 55:8-9 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

I’ve come to a point of acceptance and submissiveness. When things are out of my control I simply turn them over to the Lord.  My son was my Heavenly Father’s son long before he was mine.  A simple prayer of – I’ve done all I can do and he’s in your hands now – brings me the peace I need. I am then able to stand still and wait without the burden of excessive worry knowing that God loves my son and is watching over him.

Don’t assume you can fix everything, but fix what you can. If those are only small victories, be grateful for them and be patient. Dozens of times in the scriptures, the Lord commands someone to “stand still” or “be still”—and wait. Patiently enduring some things is part of our mortal education. ~ Elder Holland

I’m trying to celebrate the small victories such as the one we experienced yesterday.  For just one day my son was back. That brief 24 hours of “normal” brought me great peace and comfort that he can in fact be made well and whole once again because for those precious 24 hours he was.  That all hope is not lost and that God can in fact work miracles.

Today has been a day of needing to patiently endure.  The kind of day where I need to remember that my son is in the hands of the divine potter and I can’t fix everything… but I can be patient and endure it well.